Dard-e-Dil

"Tameem what's your problem? I'm telling you to sell this house, can't you understand?" Shahid shouted on Tameem when he entered in the home in evening. Tameem became pale because of his roar. He still feels scared of Shahid's roaring.

"Bhai.." He just mumbled and shahid glared him.

"Your wife is making you a puppet of hands and you are behaving like the one you don't have the manly power which one should have? you are tied to your wife's apron strap" Shahid Roar on tameem but he didn't replied anything and made her way to his bedroom where shehla was sitting with her both children helping them in their homework Talib had a class test next day so shehla was busy in taking his practice test. When she witnessed tameem entering in the room shadowed her daughter to give him water Tasmia nodded and moved towards the kitchen after closing her books.

Tameem reentered in the room after washing his hands and face and Tasmia offered him water without uttering a single word.

Neither Tameem talk to Shehla, Tasmia and Talib uselessly nor three of them try to talk to him. There was a time when both the kids always try to talk to Tameem and try to gain his love but with passing time they both understand that their efforts were useless.

Tasmia held the glass of water in front of father but...

"Chali ja yaha se manhus"

(Get lost from here you jinx)

Tameem roared while lifting his right hand in air to Tasmia, who was shocked on that sudden kind words of her father. He did the greatest favour to not slap her.

That wasn't his love but...

When Tasmia was only 9 years old, Tameem once slapped her just to drew out his anger and frustration, the slap was so harsh that Blood started oozing out from her nose, at that time Shehla warned him to not even touch a single finger to her children. Luckily the warning worked and Tameem never beat Tasmia and Talib again.

"What I have done?" Tasmia asked with tear filled eyes.

"Zeher mila kar dedo is pani main mujhe... Zindagi kharab kar di hai tum teno ne meri... Jesi manhus ye aurat hai wese hi manhus iske bachche hain.."

(Mix some poison in this water giving it to me. You three has made my life difficult)

Tameem shouted while throwing the copper glass to other side and Tasmia also throw the tray towards the wall to out her anger and frustration

"Tumhare pareshani kya hai? Hume sukun se kyu nahi rehne dete?"

(what's the matter with you. Why you don't let us live in peace?)

Shehla asked with frustration

"You are my problem... This time shahid bhai is not doing anything wrong. He is saying to make legal agreement before selling this house. Why aren't you agree?" Tameem yelled

"Your brother is not this much good that he won't creat any problem, I can't trust him" Shehla yelled back.

"Nor him.. But you can't trust anyone.. Even you didn't trusted me and hide that you have buy a plot!!" Tameem said in anger and Shehla smiled sadly.

"I told you to invest somewhere, have you listened to me? When you didn't listen then I took decision by myself" Shehla said and made her way towards the kitchen but Tameem held her arm and pulled her roughly. Before she could maintain her balance she got a slap on her left cheek, which lead tears in her eyes. Tameem stopped beating her many years back but that day he again slapped her.

"Now tell me what is your problem? I'm giving you importance more than you deserve" Tameem yelled while unbuckling his lather belt and wrapped that on his right hand, leaving half of that dangling in air to beat shehla.

"Importance... You never give me importance... Who am I for you except a maid who cook two time meal for you" Shehla shouted while crying and a the belt hit her back after swinging in the air.

"Mummyyyy" Talib and Tasmia ran towards her mother to save her and in Sough of saving shehla Talib become the next prey of that belt, but that time Shehla didn't wait for another one and pushed Tameem back.

"What do you want? You want to trust your brother... What do you think he will give you a single penny? No he won't.." Shehla yelled.

"He will, but you don't want to digest if everything is getting better between me and shahid bhai.. You have some problem with him since starting, it's not new" Tameem yelled.

"Mark my words he won't give you anything" Shehla said in challenging way.

"He will..." Tameem said in dangerously whispering voice, and shehla Send Talib to call Tehseen.

After some five minutes Tehseen and Nayla were also present in the room.

"Tehseen bhai you try to make him understand... He is not listening to me" Shehla said in defeated tone.

"Shehla hum thak gaye... Subah Aaqil bhai ki call se aakh khulti hai, aur shaam ko jab ghar aata hu to shahid bhai ek hi baat bolte hain.. Insan ghar isliye banata hai taaki use ghar main araam mile.. Ese ghar ka kya fayda jisme araam hi nahi ho. Humne to soch liya, bech dete hain ye ghar, apna alag ghar banayenge or araam se rahenge."

(Shehla we are tired now... We wake up every morning due to Aaqil's bhai's phone call, and while returning from work in evening shahid bhai repeats the same words again, and again. People make home so that they have peace inside their home.. But that's the benefit of this home if we don't have peace inside this building? Now we decided that we will be agree to sell this house. We will make our separate home and live happily)

Tehseen told everything and Nayla also nodded.

"It's been four years since we are facing these problems. The days of our life which we should spend with happiness, are going with full of stress. We want to spend our time peacefully with Muneeb." Nayla said and shehla nodded slowly.

"But I'm sure that shahid bhai won't give us share of this home" Shehla said and Tehseen shrugged her shoulders.

"Mayhap he will give us share or mayhap not, but for me the peace and happiness of my wife and child is more important than this home and share in property. If Shahid bhai and Aaqil bhai will do inequality again then they will be answerable in front of Allah" Tehseen Came out with those words and shehla nodded silently.

After sometime Tehseen and Nayla went back, Shehla and Tameem were sitting in their room with their children.

"Tehseen bhai has enough wealth that he can make his own home, but you don't have... only I know how I'm managing in your income, managing even two time meal in your income is almost impossible. Neither I nor these children ask for anything even then your salary is not enough for us, if your brother won't give us share then what will we do? How will we make our own home?" Shehla was saying but Tameem was stucked on his own line.

"Shahid bhai won't do anything like that.."

"Fine.. Do whatever you want to do but if your brothers won't give you share and my children face any problem then I'll not let you live in peace" Shehla threatened Tameem as if she could do something.

"They won't do anything wrong" Tameem said and Shehla felt helpless.

"May Allah prove you correct" She mumbled and held her head with both hands.

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After three months...

"I already told you they won't give us our share." Shehla yelled on Tameem.

Shahid gave them assurance that they will get their money within a few week of leaving Mirza's home. Shehla unwillingly leave the home but Shahid didn't gave them share. Since three months Tehseen and Tameem's family were living in rented houses in different areas. Shahid sold the house to a builder and purchased a new home for himself, Aaqil already had his separate home, when he get the share from mirza House he bought two cars, one for himself and one for his son and buy a shop in a mall too. Tehseen was also facing problem but only in searching a new home for himself. After some more two or three months Tehseen also bought a new home and they people shifted there.

But no one thing about Tameem and his children....

Tameem returned in the home and gave his salary to Shehla and she kept that in drawer and Tameem asked for dinner, shehla just glared him and sat down on the bed beside her children who were laying down on the bed.

"Bachho khana khalo"

(Kids have food)

Shehla said while caressing her children's head and they both smiled and shook their head.

"Mummy we are not hungry" both said with a smile and closed their eyes to sleep, shehla just caressed thier head and cried silently.

"Tasmia, Talib beta wake up, eat only three bites then sleep" Shehla said to her children and they both sat down on bed. Shehla wiped her tears and made her way to the kitchen, she open the casserole to drew out the single roti but the casserole was empty.

"Have you eat that roti?" Shehla asked to Tameem and and he nodded

"I was hungry" he replied and shehla glared him but tears rolled down from her eyes.

"Children haven't eat a single bite since last night, Talib is feeling dizzy, Tasmia's BP is low they both are hungry how can you have have the single roti which I made for both of them.." Shehla yelled on Tameem.

"I was very hungry, I also didn't had dinner yesterday nor I had lunch today" Tameem yelled back.

"At least you would get evening snacks and tea in the office but they both didn't had anything.. You are father at least you should think about them." Shehla yelled and made her way to the room where her children were sitting on the bed.

"Talib I'm going you list of somethings and some money bring these things, I'll make dinner for both you." Shehla said and started making the list but at the same time they all heard the door bell.

Shehla open the door.

"Rent" That was landlord, shehla nodded and moved towards the room she open the drawers and separate rent from the salary of Tameem, the remaining amount was enough for one week expenses or maximum two. Landlords went back after taking the money

"What happened now? You were confident that your brothers can't do anything wrong! What will you do now?" after closing the door Shehla shouted and Tameem glared her.

"All these things are happening because you all are unlucky for me. I'm unfortunate to have a wife like you. You all are..."

"Get lost, I don't wanna talk to you" Shehla didn't let Tameem complete and made her way to the room where her children were sitting.

Few more days passed in the same way Shehla stopped talking to Tameem but he wasn't effected but that.

But one day Tameem decided to pay a visit to shahid to ask him about the share of property and shahid just smirked and said

"Forget about the property and share. You made me wait for long time now you have to pay off for that" Tameem was numb.

"Bhai my income is not this much that I can give rent" He put his point.

"It's non of my business? Come some days to my new home, it's very lavish. Even I made a small room for the maid of home, poor old lady use to sleep in kitchen or terrace but now she can live peacefully." Shahid said happily and Tameem Was shocked. He didn't trusted shehla but them he was regretting

"Bhai you assured me to give us share" Tameem asked and shahid glared at him

"If you want share of property then give me the share of that money which I spend on abba ji's treatment, give me the money which I had spent on Ammi, on our home, on everything. First do equality in the share of money I have spent then ask for share of this house." Shahid Roared

"Shehla was correct, she was saying that you will do something like this but I beat her like animals in your defence" Tameem said and shahid smirked.

"Woh to mujhe pehle se hi pta tha... Teri biwi ka dimaag bohot khatarnaak hai, agar tu uski sari baten maan leta to aaj is tarah sadak par nhi hota."

(I already knew that she is a very clever one, if you follow her instructions then you wouldn't be on road like you are now.)

Shahid smirked proudly and Tameem realised about his mistakes.

But he was very late for that....

"I trusted you blindly" Tameem state in slow voice

"I know" Shahid shrugged in his pride way and Tameem again felt hurt.

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“Tehseen have you get your money?" Tameem asked on call

"No, when I went to Shahid bhai he said me to go to Aaqil bhia, when I went to meet Aaqil bhai he said to meet builder and when I went to meet him he said its not his matter talk to shahid bhai" Tehseen said and Tameem hummed.

"Same has happened with me" Tameem put his point and Tehseen hummed.

"What can we do now? I'm happy at least now I can spend my time with my family, Allah will do justice one day." Tehseen said in defeated tone.

"Now I'm thinking what should I do now? After giving rent of the home we don't even have enough money to feed ourselves" Tameem said

"If you need money then tell me I'll give you!" Tehseen asked and Tameem think for a second.

"I'll talk to you later." Saying that he hanged up the call.

Few more months passed in the same way, Tameem and Shehla weren't talking to each other. Shehla was trying to do something but she was feeling helpless, Tameem didn't inform her what his brothers said. Somewhere in heart Tameem was still believing that shahid did all these things because shehla refused for Faizan's proposal he was confused in his own opinions, he was trying to conclude that who was wrong... But one day...

Tameem was coming back from the office when he noticed a boy around 22, he was standing with few more boys as his same age. He was taking drugs along with his friends.

He was no one else but Faizan...

Tameem was beyond shock, he never knew that his dear nephew for whom he always disrespect his wife and almost disowned his children, was doing all those things. In Tameem's eyes Faizan was one of the most eligible bachelor of his family.

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Tameem went back to home and found shehla sitting with Both children, Tasmia and Talib were doing their homework and shehla was reciting some verses of quran. When she witnessed tameem she finished her reciting quickly and moved towards the kitchen. Without saying a single word she put a glass of water in front of him and again moved towards kitchen to heat up the food.

After some ten minutes food was served which was nothing but Red Lentil again.

"Tasmia, Talib have dinner" Shehla said before going to other room and they both nodded

"Appi I can't eat this daal anymore" Talib said and Tasmia smiled sadly.

"So stay hungry" she replied and stepped out from the bed after closing the books

"I hate bade papa and taya abbu" Talib said while about Shahid and Aaqil

"But I hate only a single man.. Who is my father, no one else, he is responsible for all these things" Tasmia said while going towards the other room in which her mother was waiting with dinner.

After having dinner half heartedly Tasmia and Talib again went to the room where they use to stay almost whole day. They had two rooms one was occupied by Shehla, Tasmia and Talib but the other one was occupied by Tameem because he didn't want 

spend his time with shehla and his children.

"How much work is left?" Shehla asked to Her childish when they both were completing their work.

"almost Done!" Talib said while writing the last answer

"A lot more" Tasmia replied with defeated tone and shehla caressed the head of her children.

"Tasmia, today your teacher called me" Shehla informed and Tasmia was surprised to know that.

"Why mummy?"

"She was saying that your performance is declining day by day. You are not active and attentive in class as like before." Shehla said and Tasmia nodded slowly.

"Beta sometimes life serves us problems, but it doesn't mean that we give up in front of that problem, we should fight back. I know you both are facing many problems but you have your whole life ahead." Both nodded on their mother's words.

"Mummy no one face such problems in this age which were facing" Talib said and shehla smiled.

"Beta ye to achhi baat hai. Tumhe pta hai kundan kese bante hain?"

(So it's better beta, do you know how glass crystal stones are made?)

Shehla asked to both of children and they both shook their head.

"Jab tak kundan aag main nahi tapta usme chamak nahi aati. Jab tak lohe par hathoda nahi padta jab tak wo kisi kaam me aane layaq nahi hota. Beta bina pareshani uthaye kisi ko Kuch nahi milta. abhi tumhe zindagi ka wo tajurba mil raha hai jo aage ja kar kaam ayega. Apni kaamyabi par dhayan do. Is pareshani se haar mat mano balki ise apni taqat banao."

(A glass crystal becomes shiny after heating up in the fire, iron becomes useful when it is hammered. No one can get anything without facing problems. Now, you are gaining experience, it'll be beneficial for you in the future. Do focus on for success. Take these problems as an opportunity to learn something, don't let them impact you negatively.)

Shehla said to both and Tasmia couldn't control her tears, she never share her feelings with anyone but that day she shared that with her mother.

"Mummy now I'm broken" Tasmia shared and shehla kissed her forehead with a smile. But only shehla knows how difficult that smile for her.

"Achha hua ek baar tut gai.. Ye samajh lo jab ek kamzoor building tut jati hai jab hi to uski jagah dusri mazbut building banti hai... Tutne ke baad jab koi dubara judta hai na to wo pehle se zyada mazbut hota hai. Aur is pareshani se agar tum log haar maan jaoge to Us shahid ko kaamyab kar doge. Apni studies par dyan do, main chahti hu mere bachche apne balbute par kaamyab hon, koi ye na kahe ki ye itne ameer hain kyuki ye Bade Mirza Sahab ke pota poti hain.. Main chahti hu log kahe ki Bade Mirza Sahab ke pota poti ne unka naam roshan kar diya"

(its good that you have break down once, it's like that when a weak structure break only then on you at stronger structure will built on its place. If you both what give up in front of these problems then that shahid will become successful in his motives. Do focus on your studies, I want my children to be successful on thier own basis. I don't want anyone say that they are the grand children of Bade Mirza Sahab that's why they are successful in thier life but I want everyone to say that Bade Mirza Sahab's grandchildren glorified his name in the society)

Both the children nodded and shehla smiled but she was actually crying from inside, she was so strong that she wasn't showing her broken state to Her children three of them were busy in talking when Tabil noticed standing on the door of room.

"Do you need something?" shehla asked without looking at him and he made his way towards three of them

He sat down beside shehla and looked at his children holding Talib's hand he lightly pulled him and hugged his son, shehla made her way out from the room after glaring Tameem but he held her wrist and gestured her from eyes to sat beside him, she didn't obeyed but Tameem roughly pulled her and she sat down beside him. He enveloped his arm around Shehla's shoulder and looked at Tasmia.

"Mujhe maaf kar do" Tameem said to three of them but they all were numb

(Forgive me)

"Shehla.. Maine tumhare sath bohot na-insafi kari hai, mujhe maaf kardi"

(Shehla, I did wrong with you. Please forgive me)

Tameem said and Shehla smiled sadly while pulling her hand from his grip.

"16 saal ho gaye shadi ko, ab yaad aa raha hai ki kya galtiyan kar di. Tumhare hote hue mene har qadam par apne aap ko akela paya hai, ab maafi mang rahe ho?"

(Its been 16 years of our marriage, are you remembering that made many mistakes. Even in your presence I always felt alone in every situation of life, now you are asking for forgiveness?)

Shehla asked with tearfilled eyes.

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Last part is left..

Then the book will be completed

😁😁😁😁

_Naaz Jamal