Dard-e-Dil

-AFTER FIVE YEARS-

Passing few years changed many things. Fuzel and Nasir got married. Nasir and his wife loved Tasmia very much but Fuzel's wife didn't like Tasmia's presence in her home, she was worried about her own son, she was thinking that Fuzel's love would be divided into his own children and Tasmia so she demanded to send Tasmia back to her parents and Mr. And Mrs. Khan couldn't resist because they couldn't afford disputes between Fuzel and His wife.

On the other hand Talib was so much close to Mrs. Mirza that if she becomes ill then Talib stop having his meal.

Every day, After freshen up, early in the morning, Talib use to go downstairs, held his grandmother's hand with his little one and bring her upstairs, to do breakfast with her.

But sometimes time don't show kindheartedness. It took away Mrs. Mirza and her love from Shehla and Talib. Tameem was totally broken after his mother's death. He was very close to Mrs. Mirza as he was youngest among all siblings and at the time of Bade Mirza Sahab he was only 12, so Mrs. Mirza took his special care from that time.

But many more thing were also changed...

Tameem lost his business and he started doing job in a printing firm. His Seizures were becoming more and more intense, earlier he use to take 4 pills a day but in those years doctors increases the dose to 8 pills a day, which was effecting his kidneys and liver.

But one day... Shehla was in khan's home to meet her family. That day some guests were also present in khan's home, in between their talks they discussed about a doctor randomly. But that random discussion was going to change everything.....

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Passing time changed Tameem but not in good way....

When he lost his business and start working in a firm his salary was nothing in front of his income from his business, that problem effected his brain very much. He wasn't aggressive like before but he became a silent one, as if he didn't have a tongue. After every seizure he start behaving more like a child, Tasmia and Talib felt happy when their father behave like a child as they felt that they get company in their childish acts. Tameem many times use to show his tantrums to Shehla for not eating food, or not wearing the clothes which Shehla ironed for him. Those innocent children felt happy as they think that his father was acting childish but Shehla use to cry, she was living with a husband who was mentally immature, instead of getting her husband's love she had to took his care as a child.

"Ek doctor ke bare me pta chala hai... Ek baar try kar lo ho sakta hai kuch fayda ho jaye"

(I have get to know about a doctor, we should try, maybe it would be beneficial)

Shehla said to Tameem when they four were busy in dinner.

"Main dawaiyan khate khate thak gya hu, kisi se kuch nhi hota"

(I'm tired of taking medicines, their isn't any benefits!)

Tameem told her and focus on his meal.

"But I have to take you to that doctor, it's final" Shehla said in ordering way and Tameem nodded.

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"Its around thirty years of these seizures" The doctor mumbled while looking at the reports of Tameem and he nodded.

"Doctor I had read that this problem can be passed in ward from parents! Is this true?" That was the first question which Shehla asked and Doctor took a minute before answering.

7 years old Tasmia and 6 years old Talib were also sitting in the very big cabin of Doctor, they both were playing with the sand clock which was placed on the corner of doctor's table.

"Its not necessary that this problem pass on from one generation to other, but there are 70% chances of this." Doctor's words gave tears to Shehla, she was strong for this world but she was a soft hearted mother, she couldn't tolerate even a single scratch on her children.

" It means my children are also in risk?" Shehla asked and doctor think for a minute

"From how long you are getting these attacks?" Doctor asked and Shehla looked at Tameem.

"Since childhood" Tameem replied.

"Many times he behave like a child, sometimes he behave like mature and sometimes as a sensible man. And sometimes he keep repeating his words uselessly for an hour or maybe more". Shehla informed and doctor nodded

"Are you getting these seizures After some specific incident or without any incident?" Doctor enquiries

"I am not remembering any specific incident, I just knows that I was sitting on a chair when first time I felt something different and when I open my eyes I was in hospital" Tameem informed and The doctor nodded. Then again took a pause, little Tasmia was listening the conversation of doctors and her parents but Talib was still busy in playing with the sand clock

"Did your parents also had this problem? Or any other relatives like blood relatives of your father and mother." Doctor asked and Tameem think for a while

"My mother was totally fine, but I don't know about my father and other relatives. I had listened that one of my uncle became insane when he got to know about his son's death, but I never listened anything about seizures" Tameem informed and doctor nodded. He opened an old book which was very thick and read something from that then wrote something in his poor handwriting, on the prescription. But then cut that and wrote something else but again cut that. Little girl Tasmia was thinking that he wasn't a good doctor as he wasn't able to write anything effectively. In the end of ten minutes of writing and cutting the medicines name doctor gave up and looked at Shehla.

"I need his every single detail, from when he started getting these seizure, about his family history related to this issue. Is anyone else also having the same problem in his family or not. I'm not giving any medicines right now. First let me know these details. And do these tests, and scans" Shehla nodded very seriously and passed a smile with great difficulty.

"Thank you" Shehla made herself stand with that word and that four came back to home.

"Mujhe to ye doctor bekar laga, ek bhi dawai nhi di..."

(I don't like that doctor, he didn't give any medicine)

Tameem said shehla ignored

"or itne pese kaha hain ki dawaiton main kharch kre, or ye test karwa payen"

(and also we don't have enough money that we can afford these tests and spend money on medicines)

Tameem said and Shehla glared him.

"Jao apne pyare bhai ka shukriya ada karo, unki hi meherbani hai jo aaj mere bachche ek ek rupee ki toffee k liye bhi taraste hain"

(Go and do thanks to your brother, its his mercy that my children are craving for every small thing, even for a toffee of one rupee.)

Shehla said in taunting way and Tameem glared her.

"Woh bhi tumhari zid or tumhari beti ki wajah se hua hai"

(that's all because of you and your dear daughter.)

Tameem said with a taunting style.

That was true, Tameem's business was not sink accidentally but that was done by Shahid intensionally.

Shahid took a big amount of money from a man 'Mr. Rajan' to invest in his business

Mr. Rajan was a business man when he came to took back his money then Shahid advise him not to take cash but Go to Tameem and give him order to print his books, even more than the worth of the amount taken by Shahid. Mr. Rajan was a typical business man, he just want back his money by hook or by crook, so he gave order to Tameem to print his Books and calendars in order to recover his money.

Tameem was happy that he got a new client who gave him a very big order, but after printing all the books and calendars when Tameem asked for payment then Mr. Rajan informed everything to Tameem, Mr. Rajan didn't pay even a single penny except the advance money. When Tameem ask for money to Shahid he shouted on him very loudly which was enough for give a seizure to Tameem. Shehla put all the matter in front of Aaqil he said that Shahid did wrong and he will get the punishments of his deeds, but no one knew that he was also 50% partner of shahid in that plan. There weren't any way to get back the money, So the topic was ended there....

Tameem and his business was in debt, in order to pay off all the debts, Tameem sold his car, his machinery and his office, and started doing job in a firm which was as big as his own business....

"Mera dimaag kharab mat karo, dafa ho jao yaha se"

(Don't spoil my mood, get lost from here)

Tameem yelled on shehla and she glared back him.

"Bohot sun chuki main, mere upar cheekne ki zarurat nahi hai, kal office se chhutti lo or ye sare test karao, phir waha se razia Baji ke ghar chalege"

(I already listened and tolerate much, now no need to shout on me. Tomorrow Take off from office and do all these tests, then we will go to Razia baji's home)

Shehla said in ordering way.

"I don't have money for all these tests And medicines" Tameem said rudely

"I already know, I'll arrange the money" Shehla said and Tameem sighed as he knew shehla wasn't going to obey him.

She took out the gold bangles which she never wore. That was the same bangles which Tameem gave her or its better to say throw on her on their wedding night. That were twelve gold bangles, which were very heavy. Shehla kept that for Tasmia but then decided to sold them for Tameem's treatment.

She was sitting on bed holding that bangles, she wore them first and last time and in no time remove them

"Mummy is this yours?" Tasmia asked with curiosity and shehla shook her head

"This is someone's else" Shehla kissed her daughter's cheek and said with a smile.

A smile which was there to hide the state of her pain, but those little eyes captured her mother's face in her mind, but she didn't understand the hidden pain of her mother.

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Shehla asked to Razia about their family history related to health, and she informed everything to shehla in detail, shehla didn't wanted to disclose about Tameem's treatment in front of Shahid and Aaqil because she understood that shahid was not a well wisher, and Aaqil always share everything with Shahid.

"Kahan ja rahe ho bachcho?"

(where are you going kids?)

Shahid asked to Tasmia And Talib when they both were going downstairs

Before kids reply anything shehla took steps towards them and...

"Bohot din ho gaye kahi gaye nahi, to bachcho to India Gate le kar ja rahe hain"

(Since many days we haven't visit anywhere so we are taking kids to India Gate)

"Tameem Teri biwi ko pesa sambhal kar rakhna nahi aata... Sayra se kuch seekho, kitne pese bachati hai."

(Tameem your wife don't know how to save money learn something from sayra, see how much money she saves)

Shahid said while glaring Tameem and shehla and Shehla's blood got a boil, she didn't bother to reply but her blood pressure became hight with that.

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"He get first seizure when he was only 11, before that he never had any problem. Before a month of first seizure he fell down from terrace and got a major injury in his head" Shehla informed doctor about Tameem and he nodded with deep creases on his forehead.

Talib and Tasmia both were getting bore sitting in the cabin of doctor who was asking thousand questions to Tameem and Shehla. It's been an hour, but doctors questions weren't completing.

"Mummy I'm hungry" Shehla nodded on Talib's demand and again started giving her eyes and ears to doctor.

"Appi I'm hungry" The little boy whispered in Tasmia's ear.

"I'm also hungry, mummy is not giving us anything to eat" Tasmia whispered back

"Through these reports and the details you are giving I'm concluding only one thing." Doctor said and stopped in between to write something.

"Due to that injury some of his blood vessel is blocked, and when blood flow increases at that time blood doesn't reach to some parts of brain, which must be the main reason of these attacks" Doctor told and Shehla nodded.

"And what about my kids, is there any chances..." Shehla asked and the doctor shook his head.

"If these seizures are due to that injury then it won't effect your children" Shehla smiled and got some happy tears in her eyes, she was very anxious for her children but that news made her relax to a good extent.

"Will he start behaving like a mature one?" Shehla asked and doctor shrugged.

"I can't say anything, his brains development was effective by that injury. In short you can say that he was unable to learn the things which we usually learn from our surrounding while growing up. We can treat a patient with medical treatment but we can't make them learn with medical treatment." Shehla sighed on that and doctor wrote something on the off white coloured paper.

"Dawai main de raha hu, dua aap kariye.. Ye case itna bhi simple nahi hai jitna lag raha hai."

(I'm giving medicines you do prayers.. This case isn't that much simple that it's looking)

Doctor said and Shehla nooded before getting up from the seat after almost one and half hour. Tasmia and Talib took a relief from that boring meeting with doctor.

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After two months....

Shehla was in Aaqil's room, she was telling Aashi (Aaqil's daughter) how to make roti, when Tamia came to her while running.

"Mummyyyyyy..."

"Mummmmyyyyyyyyyy"

"Kya hua beta..."

(What happen dear)

"Mummy papa is shouting and crying" Tasmia informed Shehla and she scoot to the room

"Shehlaaa.."

"Shehla do something Shehla..."

Tameem was shouting loudly while holding his head with both hands. He was feeling oppressive and Insufferable pain in his head, which was a good sigh because the medicine was working, Tameem was feeling pain because his blocked blood vessels were opening again and with the pressure of blood he was feeling pain.

"Shehla do something... Shehlaaa..." He was shouting as if shehla had some solution of his pain.

"Papa.. Papa kya ho gya aapko" Tabil asked with panic but Tasmia was shocked to see the condition of her father.

Shehla didn't get anything to do. She sat down on bed placing Tameem's head in her lap and started pressing his head.

"Shehla.. Bohot dard ho raha hai, kuch kro... Bhai ko bulalo.. Kuch to karoo, kuch karo"

(Shehla,... Its painful.. I can't tolerate this pain.. Do something.. Call bhai.. Do something, please so something)

Tameem yelled in pain and shehla got tears in her eyes.

"Abhi theek ho jayega.. Thodi deer me"

(it will be fine in some time)

Shehla was also crying while pressing Tameem's head. Looking at their mother, Tasmia and Talib also stated pressing Their father's either hands and arms. They didn't knew the reason of their mother's action they were just innocently copying Shehla.

On one hand were Tameem's health was becoming better, there on the other hand Shahid and Aaqil's deed was going to come in front of Shehla and Tameem.

But that would be very late... Maybe or maybe not...

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Saza paai thi bina kisi qusur ke humne tumse,

Jaza bhi de do us wafa ki jo kari thi humne tumse...

_Naaz Jamal

22.o7.2o2o

(qusur=mistake/offence

Jaza= reward

Wafa= faithfulness)

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