Dard-e-Dil

Mrs. Mirza was on ninth cloud, she was holding a big smile on her face because she got a new grandchild that too a boy.

Shehla and Tameem were blessed by a baby boy. Who was going to be his 'Dadi Ammi's' favourite grandchild.

(paternal grandmother)

That day was full of happiness, because that was the day of baby shower. Shehla had received many gifts and blessings from her family, in-laws family and relatives.

After a long tiring day The function was over. Full family was gathered in Mrs. Mirza's room. Nayla and Kehkasha were opening the gifts, Shahid, Aaqil, Tameem and Tehseen were busy in discussing some worthless topics. Sayra and Shehla were sitting here there of Mrs. Mirza, who was holding her little grandson in her lap. One year old chubby girl who was none other than Tasmia was playing with her cousins.

"Ammi.." Shahid's voice grabbed everyone's attraction.

"Hmm"

"I'm thinking about to fix Faizan's match" Shahid said and everyone laughed.

"Shahid He is only 7..." Mrs. Mirza said in laughing state.

"Ammi I'm not joking, I'm serious.. I'm thinking to make Tasmia my daughter-in-law." those words gave immense happiness and joy to Whole family but not Shehla

"But Ammi they are just kids right now" Shehla said to Mrs. Mirza and Shahid nodded his head.

"I'm not saying to marry off your daughter tomorrow... I'm just saying to fix their alliance, and marriage will take place at the suitable ages of both of them." Shahid said and everyone nodded with a smile but not Shehla.

"Tameem are you agree?" Mrs. Mirza asked and Shehla was expecting some good decision taken by her husband but....

"Ammi Faizan se achha or kon ho sakta hai Tasmia ke liye! Achha hai abhi hi rishta pakka ho jayega to aage koi pareshani nahi hogi" Tameem said with full of happiness but Shehla was shocked

(Ammi who can be better than Faizan for Tasmia. It would be better to fix the alliance in childhood.)

"Toh phir Rishta pakka... Tasmia ki shadi Faizan se hogi."

(So its final, Tasmia will get married with Faizan)

Mrs Mirza announced and Shehla glared Tameem on his wrong decision.

"No Ammi..." Shehla said a little louder so that her voice would be audible in the commotion of family.

"What no?" Shahid, Tameem and Mrs. Mirza three of them asked in unison

"No means that I'm not agree with this alliance!" Shehla said confidently.

"And what is the reason behind that?" Shahid asked while glaring her, whole mirza family was shocked on Shehla's rebel

"Now Faizan is only 7, Tasmia is only 1.. how can we take such a big decision of their lives in such a small age!" Shehla put her point.

"There isn't anything wrong in this" Mrs. Mirza insisted and Tameem nodded.

"For now they are very small, what about the financial career of Faizan? How can we decide such a important part of their lives in small age. And we don't know how they will look after some twenty years! If they will not look suitable for each other then that will be a miss match" Shehla said and Mrs. Mirza shook her head.

"You are over thinking shehla." Mrs. Mirza said with a smile and placed her hand on her shoulder.

"Don't think so much, when kids get to know that they have to marry with each other then they will be prepared for that since beginning, so there won't be any problem with their looks and appearance" Mrs. Mirza added and Shehla looked at Tameem with hopeful gaze so that he help her in his decision.

"Ammi What will happen if Faizan or Tasmia will not like each other?" Shehla placed her opinion.

"Shehla stop it, nothing will happen like that." Tameem almost yelled in her, and she glared him

"Meri bachchi ki zindagi ka feesla aap sab ne itni jaldi main kese le sakte hain.. Shadi koi khel to nahi hai... Bachche abhi chote hain unke dimaag main ye shadi ki baten na pade to zyada achha hoga..."

(Kids are very young, so it's better that we don't discuss all these things in front of them)

Shehla said with full confidence and shahid was constantly glaring her.

''Tameem teri bewi ko tameez nahi hai bado se baat karne ki.."

(Tameem your wife don't know the way of taking with elders.)

Shahid said with angry voice.

"Shehla tumhari pareshani kya hai? Faizan main kis cheez ki kami hai?"

(shehla what's wrong with you? Tell me only a single flaw in Faizan)

Tameem yelled on her.

"Abhi to koi kami nahi dikh rahi magar aane wale Waqt ka kisi ko Kuch nahi pta.. Agar sab kuch theek raha to in ke bade hone ke baad rishta pakka kar denge, abhi kya zarurat hai?"

(At this time everything is fine but no one knows about what future is holding... Let's see if everything will be fine then we can think about their alliance in future but not now)

Shehla put her point and everyone glared her.

"Bhai Mujhe koi pareshani nahi hai is rishte se... Meri taraf se rishta Pakka. Tasmia Meri beti hai uski zindagi ka fesla karne ka pura haq hai mujhe"

(I don't have any problem with this match. The Proposal is fixed from my side, I'm Tasmia's father so I have right to take the decision of her life)

Tameem said while glaring Shehla who was glaring him

"Tumhare paas Tasmia ki Zindagi ka fesla karne ka haq hai.. Uski Zindagi barbaad karne ka nahi. Abhi is shadi ki baat par itna zoor dene ki kya zarurat hai?"

( you have right to take the decision of of Tasmia's life but not to take a decision to destroy her life. What is the need of thinking about her marriage right now?)

Shehla averred that and Tameem glared her.

" Ammi, main aapki bohot izzat karti hu, apni Ammi se bhi zyada. Main Aapki sari baten maanti hu magar is baat ki zid mat kariye.." Shehla said in respectful manner and made herself stand from there, she picked her son in arms, held Tasmia's hand and went to her bedroom.

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"Shehla she is my daughter an..." Tameem was saying but she didn't let her complete

"She is my daughter too. Don't play with her life. We don't know what will be....." Shehla was saying when she was stopped in between by a slap of Tameem.

"Shup your mouth" Shehla was shocked, she gave birth to a child just seven days ago and instead of taking care of her Tameem was slapping her.

"Tasmia ki shadi to Faizan se hi hogi tu rok sakti hai to rok le.."

(Tasmia's marriage will be done with Faizan, if you can stop then try)

Tameem said with full of anger.

"Main nahi karungi apni beti ki shadi is ghar main..."

(I won't marry my daughter in this hom...)

Shehla said while glaring him and got a slap again. Before she could stop Tameem, he started beating her like animals, she tried to save herself but couldn't in front of a mentally ill person, who just lost his control on his mind.

Shehla didn't want to do Tasmia's Marriage with Faizan because Mirza family made Shehla married with Tameem by hiding the truth that he was mentally ill.

Once a deceiver always a deceiver

How could shehla took a chance with Her daughter's life and future.

Handling Tameem wasn't easy for Shehla, when he started behaving like a ten or twelve years old boy, only shehla knows how she handle him. If he starts to behave odd in market or in any gathering then only shehla faced all the embarrassment. Sometimes when she need her husband to protect her she felt alone because her timid hearted husband felt scared with loud shouts and with someone's glare, specially with Shahid and Aaqil. Even after all those things Shehla was living with Tameem because she wanted a good family relationship with her husband and specially she wanted the love of father for her children.

"S..stop it.. Please.. For Allah's sake.. Stop it..." Shehla yelled very louly, enough loudly that people sitting in the next home also listened her screams.

"Ab bol... Kya bol rahi thi.. Tujhe oqaat se zyada sir par bitha liya mene... Peer ki juti ko sir pr rakh liya tha..."

(Now say what you were saying! I was giving you respect more than you deserve)

Tameem said with anger ignoring Shehla, who was agonizing because he didn't realised when did he kicked on her abdomin.

Shehla was screaming loudly for help but no one came to help her. For the first time Shehla realised that she took a wrong decision by not taking divorce... She was living with a man who can even kill her if he become mad

Tameem left her alone in the room, she was still crying loudly but Tameem also wasn't fine after very stressful and hard work of beating her wife he also got a Seizure which was heavier than before.

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Next day Kehkasha came to Shehla's bedroom and found her crying while holding her belly. Both kids were crying but no one was there to check them. Shehla informed that Tameem kicked her abdomin which was the reason of her pain. She wanted to go to her maternal home but since her condition wasn't fine so Mrs. Mirza didn't allow her, they people know that khan family will ask about Shehla's condition so they play safe by not sending her anywhere. Shehla's face and arms were full of bruises so Mirza family didn't took her to hospital, because they would be arrested in a police case for domestic violence. So they call a private lady doctor who gave some medicines to her but no one knew that Shehla got a very miserable injury in her uterus which was going to make her suffer in future.

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"Are you agree now or not?" Tameem asked to shehla after a week and shehla shook her head with stubbornness. They both didn't exchange a single word with each other after that night.

"Still you are stucked on your stubbornness" He yelled

"Do what ever you want to do, but I won't be agree.... We don't know what will their nature and habits in future... Try to understand" Shehla tried to made him understand but hadn't get success

"Faizan is my brother's son..."

"But she is your own daughter, think about her.." Shehla didn't let him complete

"Shehla ek baar samajh lo.. Agar is maamle main apni marzi chalaogi to puri zindagi tumhari shakal bhi nhi dekhunga."

(Shehla Mark my work, if you take this decision against me then I won't see your face ever)

Tameem said and shehla felt a different pang in her heart. She had to chose between her husband or her daughter's future.

Shehla knew that Sayra And shahid both were very cunning and heartless moreover shehla had a strong feeling that Faizan won't be a suitable match for Her daughter so she couldn't take risk for Tasmia..

"My decision is still same" Shehla said with determination.

"So my decision is also same... I won't talk, to you ever..."

"You love her so much then why you are doing this?" Shehla asked

"I'm doing correct, you are taking a wrong decision" Tameem said angrily.

"Apni marzi chalane ka bohot shookh hai na tujhe to chala ab apni marzi puri zindagi ke liye... Jo dil chahe wo kar... Na tu meri biwi na ye mere bachche... Jahan dil chahe waha shadi kar dena iski, Yeh mare ya zinda rahe meri taraf se bhaad main jaye... Ab, puri zindagi ummeed mat karna ke main tum Teno ke maamle main kabhi bolunga... Mar gye tum teeno mere liye."

(You like to do what you like to do. Right? So do the same for the rest of your life. I won't say anything ever. From now onwards neither your are my wife nor these are my children. Marry her off wherever you want, from my side she go to hell.. But don't hope in your whole life that I will be there for you in future... You three are dead for me.)

Shehla just nodded on that with an egoistic expression on her face but from inside she was trying to gather the shattered pieces of herself. In the age of nineteen she was the mother of two children and her husband was just name sake husband then.

After that conversation Tameem stopped talking to Shehla. He stopped taking her advice in his business deals due to which his business started suffering but he didn't talk to her. Mrs. Mirza was highly disappointed with Shehla and her stubbornness so she strictly ordered Tameem that she didn't want Shehla to come downstairs. In order to fulfil the order of Mrs. Mirza, Shahid said Tameem to make separate kitchen on second floor so that Shehla didn't come downstairs to have food. Tameem use to came latenight from his mother's room to avoid Shehla, Tasmia and Talib (Shehla's son)

Most of the time Tameem came back to room when Shehla was sleeping after having her dinner. Sometimes Tameem heat up the dinner for himself and sometimes when he need food he just shook Shehla's arm to make her awake and ask for food.

Shehla and Tameem's relationship was converted into bond of food. Tameem bring groceries to cook and Shehla just cook for him and herself, other than that they never talk to each other. Before that Shehla always try to work of her relationship to make her marriage stable, but after that she left all the hopes to get her husband's love and decided to dedicate her life for her children. The reality of their relationship was not hidden with Mirza family, but khan family didn't had any idea about that, neither Shehla revealed the truth in front of others because she was a person who always give priority to self respect, so she always hide all her problems from others and stay strong as a rock.

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Zindagi tera hisaab kabhi samajh na aaya,

Tune kam diya ya humne zyada gawaya...

_Naaz Jamal

19.07 2020

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