Fiza

“Sorry, hum bachche ko nhi bacha paye. Aapko Fiza ne nhi bataya tha kya? Use Placenta previa stage 2 tha. Woh 10 hafte pregnant thi. Maine use aagah kiya tha ki ek dhachka bhi uske liye khatarnak hai… phir kaise use dhakka lag gaya huh?” Doctor Tazeem ko daat rhi thi.

“Itne gair-zimmedar kaise ho sakte hai aap log…” Tazeem sadme mein tha. Fiza pregnant thi aur usne tab bhi gusse mein kya kuch nhi bola…use dard diya…

Tabhi ek nurse aake Fiza ki bigadti tabiyat ka batati hai. Woh namaz padh rhi thi aise halat mein bhi aur uska badan thanda pad rha tha.

Usi waqt Ammi hospital aati hai, ghar k bane khane k saath. Fiza ka khayal rakhne k liye. Aate hi woh Tazeem ko zor ka thappad maarti hai.

“Kya kiya hai tumne Fiza k saath? Batao...itni hasi khushi se leke aaye the bahut banake apne ghar...maujza tha..khuda ki rehmat thi ki tumhe tumhari mohabbat mil gyi thi...phir aisa kya hua ki woh aisi halat mein hai Tazeem? Mujhe khamoshi nhi jawab dijiye…” Ammi se tez awaaz mein daat lagayi.

“Ammi woh…” Tazeem saara kissa batane laga. Khud ki galti bhi maani.

“Tauba tauba... Tumne mujhe bhi nhi bataya ki bachcha khatam ho gaya... Tazeem yeh kya kr diya tumne.. usne Khuda se tumhari shikayat ki hai marte marte... Ek ladki k aansun hi kaafi hai kisi ko saza dene k liye... Aur usne toh apna bachcha khoya hai woh bhi tumhe batane se pehle... Khuda rehem kre tum pr... Bahut bada gunah kiya hai tumne…Mujhe tumse yeh ummeed nhi thi.”

Kuch lamhe baad, Doctor aake Fiza ki sehat ka batati hai.

Ammi ailan krti hai,

“Main tumhe uske aas paas bhi nhi dekhna chahti...Yeh jaante hue bhi ki woh bachpan se kitne seh rhi hai tumne bhi wahi kiya… Fiza ko main uske Nano k ghar le jaungi... Aur tum usse tab tak nhi mil sakte jab tak woh raazi ho..”

“Ammi…” Tazeem rone laga. Ammi, Fiza se milne gyi.

Rote hue, ghutno pe aake, Tazeem ne kaha,

“Sahi hi kaha jaata hai. Gusse mein kuch mat kro. Ek galat faisla aur zindagiyan bikhar jaati hai..”

“Meri aankhein taras gyi thi use dekhne k liye. Ammi ne sakht pehra de rakha tha. Ghar pe laane k bawajood, main usse mil nhi paaya. Aakhiri lamha, woh jab Nano k paas jaa rhi thi, mera sar jhuka hua tha. Woh khadi thi mere paas kuch chand lamhe, bas usi sahare aajtak jee rha hun.

Ammi se uski baatein hoti thi. Main chupke se sunn leta tha. Canada mein uski therapies chali. Aur wahan ek job bhi krna shuru kr diya tha.

Mujhe bas iss baat ka afsos hai ki kaash maine uss din khud k gusse ko shant kr liya hota aur kaash uss darinde ki baaton mein nhi aata, Fiza pe shaq nhi krta, toh aaj hum aise nhi hote…”

Tazeem ne apne aansun poche. Zehreen sisak sisak k ro rhi thi.

“Meri galtiyon se sikho tum, bachchon. Gussa aur khamoshi…Yeh dil todne ka kaam krte hai… Khamoshi kahan rakhni hai aur kahan nhi, pata hona chahiye. Dhyan rakhna…”

“Ji” Zafar aur Tayyab ne kaha.

Tazeem ne gaadi rukne ki awaaz suni.

“Lagta hai aapki cousin aa gyi milne.” Tayyab ne kaha.

“Ab toh muh poch lijiye. Aise rote chehre se swagat krengi aap unka…?” Zafar ne samjhaya aur Zehreen ke aansun poche.

Yeh dekhte hue Tazeem muskura diye. Woh lamha use Fiza ki yaad aa rhi thi.

Tabhi darwaza khula.

“Zehreen Baji, Ifrah aa gyi hai…” Ek meethi awaaz poore cafe mein gunji.

“Swagat hai aapka.” Tazeem ne muskurake bola pr uski aankhein wahin darwaze pe tham gyi.

“Phuppi, aaiye jaldi. Zehreen Baji wahan baithi hai…” Ifrah ne Fiza ko bulaya.

Tazeem k dil ki dhadkane kuch alfaaz keh rhi thi. Uski mohabbat se saalon baad deedar jo hua.

Jaise hi woh uske kareeb aa pahunchi, Tazeem k hoton se uski ek pukar nikli.

“Fiza”

Woh wahi ruk gyi.

“Ji aap kaun?”

Tazeem ka dil chhoor chhoor ho gaya.

“Aapko Mera naam kaise pata? Kya aap mujhe jaante hai?” Fiza ne phirse poocha.

“Phuppi, woh aapka swagat Fiza cafe mein kr rhe hai. Woh aapko kaise jaante honge…?” Ifrah ne samjhaya.

Fiza muskurayi aur Zehreen ne use gale laga liya.

“Aap aayi Ifrah k saath, mujhe achcha laga.” Zehreen ne pyaar se kaha.

Tazeem ko ek maazi waqya yaad aa gaya..

“Agar kabhi main aap se door ho gayi toh aap kya karenge?” Fiza ki awaaz Tazeem k kaan mein goonj rhi thi.

“Door kyun jaogi tum?”

“Bas bataiye na…”

“Main tumhein dhoondhta phirunga, jab tak tum mil na jao. Fiza naam ka ek dukaan khol lunga tumhe dhundne k liye..” Tazeem hasne laga.

“Aur agar main mil kar bhi anjaan ban jaun phir?”

“Kaise betuke sawal kr rhi ho Fiza…Main phir kya krun tumhi samjha do..” Tazeem ka utra hua chehra dekh, Fiza ne samjhaya,

“Phir samajh lena… dard mohabbat se zyada gehra ho gaya hai. Aur Agar kabhi humare darmiyan faasla aa bhi gaya…toh main dua karungi ke aap khush rahe. Kyunki mohabbat ka matlab kabhi kabhi door reh kar bhi kisi ki khushi chahna hota hai.”

Tazeem samajh gaya tha. Usne Fiza ko kho diya hai. Woh apni kursi pe baith gaya aur uss kitaab k aakhiri safhe k lafzon ko dohraya,

Mohabbat aasani se bhulai nahi jaati,

yeh saanson ki tarah umr bhar nibhayi jaati hai..

Magar jab dil par daraar pad jaaye,

toh pehchan kar bhi anjaan ban jaana padta hai..